Laila has decided that she will not be crippled by resentment.
Mariam wouldn’t want it that way. What’s the sense? She would say with a smile both innocent and wise. What good is it, Laila jo? And so Laila has resigned herself to moving on. For her own sake, for Tariq’s, for her children’s. And for Mariam, who still visits Laila in her dreams, who is never more than a breath or two below her consciousness. Laila has moved on. Because in the end she knows that’s all she can do. That and hope.
I lost the privilege of your good graces
a long time ago and for that I only have myself to blame…(I) understand only when nothing can be undone. I hope you will credit me with knowing that your forgiveness is not for sale.
May you find the happiness, peace and acceptance that I did not give you.
Excerpt from Jalil’s letter to his daughter Mariam
All from ‘A Thousand Splendid Suns’ by Khaled Hosseini
The book has neglect, abuse, subterfuge, hostility and outrage we don’t want to know about. The relationships, ah the relationships, are heartbreaking and heartwarming. I finished the book thinking……..how insignificant my problems in the workplace.
I think I can’t bear to start another book just now because I must mull over and savor the lessons of this one.